political strife in my home country

Few days ago, Anwar Ibrahim, our ex DPM contested in the Permatang Pauh by-election. Needless to say he won, and won big. I'd never been inclined to know much about politics before, but I believe everyone in this country can sense that our country is as unstable as its ever been in the last few decades.. especially when it was under the Mahathir autocratic (although preached democratic) rule.

Being deprived of a reliable source of information from our official and government controlled newspapers, there was never much transparency for Malaysians. But now, our internet driven community has easy access to any information through the world wide web. This boom in the communication and information technology fields was in fact encouraged and given priority by our previous PM.. so how ironic is it that now it's come back to bite the ruling coalition in their ass!!! LoL..

What goes around comes around.

Building a Family

Today I went out with an old uni-mate, Erin. Been maybe half a year since I last saw her, and naturally, one of our topics of conversation fell to when I'm gonna have kids (again! yes, lots of people have asked that same question too). Ya, I know I'm one of the very very minority in today's generation of youths who got married a wee bit too early (at the age of 24 *gasp*) but that doesn't necessarily mean I'm ready to heat up my oven and pop one out anytime soon! I mean, sure kids are cute when they're like 1 to 3 years old? But everytime I go out and see parents having to deal with difficult kids who don't wanna go home from the shopping complex or who's wailing their heads off so their parents will buy them another useless toy, I can't help but think, is it worth it to subject myself to this kind of life for the remainder of my life..

Although I'm only 26, my mom's been hinting already that I should start "trying". Y'know, time to start a prototype *egad*. Sure I know lots of people have said that having kids make your life more fulfilling somehow, to be the person responsible for your offspring's upbringing, but imagine how much of my own time I'd need to sacrifice for a baby. Everything me and hubby do would be centered around this kid and we're just not ready to do that :)

I guess everything has its pros and cons, no? But would anybody want to bring a child into this world if he or she wasn't ready to give all her attention and love to it? Well, I'm sure that I don't want to be a parent who gives birth to a child when I'm not ready to give my all. Anyway, the time will come when a lil counter terrorist will be running around my house, just not.. right.. now..

Tikus / Vege / KNS

My poor friends Applejul and Janice were complaining about tikus / vege / kns again just now. Seems like all I hear from them these days is about how brainless he is, how annoying he is, how bossy he is. I'm just so glad that I can just listen in perfect calm and not be the least hot or bothered about him, haha. Coz he ain't my problem no more!

Just see how many nicknames he's collected and anyone would know that he's the type of guy who just can't help stepping on people's toes left, right and center. Which is why I'm so thankful that I'm not working for him anymore *praise the Lord* haha.

Anyway, I think it's pretty unfair that this company rewards people based on their seniority and loyalty. I mean, a manager like this can seriously do more damage than good to any team's morale, spirit and productivity.

Back from Bangkok

Today is the first day back at work. 10:13am, and I'm still not in the mood for work :P It's hard lar to get back into a working mood when I've just been on a super enjoyable holiday. From Bangkok temples to carbaret shows to frenzied bargaining in night markets, the whole holiday has been like a whirlwind of fun for me.

Some highlights of my trip are tasting the yummy spicy food in Thailand, seeing some really cool kinky costumes (and buying 2, hehe), going to see really pretty girls (boys?) dancing and lip syncing on a pretty stage, having my joints cracked at the Thai massage centres and skinny dipping at midnight in the hotel pool (haha, my first time).

Some downsides though, we didn't get to go experience the night life in Thailand, and there were plenty of other activities that we missed out on like bungy jumping (yea, I was hoping to try that out), and spending 80 bucks at a shooting range for a lousy 10 bullets ( I didn't shoot the gun, hubby did). And getting conned to watch a lousy tiger show for 130 bucks. Yucks, the girls were really fat and ugly too. And most were not even girls.

But now I'm back, I'm one kg heavier (sigh) and I have to go back to figuring out what the hell is wrong with my program! argh. Well, I think I can afford to relax for the morning at least :P

random thoughts

Today I was surfing around at the usual blogs that I visit, and coming across JenJen's blog, I saw that my pathetic blog was actually one of the blogs that she links to.. imagine that..hehe.. And I felt that I just had to post something, if only out of a sense of obligation. So, anyway, my pathetic blog must be a living testament of how I'm not exactly the type of person who reports on what I do every single minute on my blog :) no offense to those who do.

But anyway, I think I did do something pretty cool last weekend. I went and killed Colonel Kurzen, me who was just a level 36, managed to kill a level 40 Colonel Kurzen. And he had stealth too, so he could creep around and suddenly disappear when I'm just about to almost kill him. Plus, he had 2 huge konco-konco with him in the cave! Cool huh, I used my magic powers and turned them into sheep one by one, then killed them all with my super frostbolt powers! Muahahaha, ok lar, of course with help from my super macho hubbie who happens to be a paladin.. But the coolest thing is, the idea to sheep those S.O.B.s was actually mine. haha.. and I'm a noob too! :D Ok lar, enough bragging, anyway, only WOW players would know what I'm talking about. hehe..

Other than that, it was a pretty boring weekend for me. I did think of going to one of mfg's parties again, but they said it started at 3pm, and the thought of dousing my arteries with alcohol that early in the day wasn't exactly appealing. Especially since I had to come to work today..

Sigh, JuJu is still in her training. Feel a bit bored without her, but it's ok, coz we're so gonna sweat our fat asses (oh, my fat ass lar, JuJu's got a nice small ass) tomorrow at aerobics. haha.. ok, enough of random thoughts, signing off til my next pathetic post..

Fear

There are many kinds of fear that one can experience, some even to the point of being phobic. But some people don't even know that they are afraid. They live in oblivion and denial of their own cocoon of fear, and they never emerge from it.

I know a guy.. he's afraid to let anyone into his life. He closes himself to anyone who tries to ask him personal questions. He deflects any personal question with a joke, and what's worse is that, he doesn't even do it gracefully. It comes out weird and gives people the impression that he's insincere. Which he is, actually.

Anyway, I believe that his main problem is that he can't accept himself for who he is. I personally think that he's a sensitive guy, probably too sensitive. And perhaps when he was young, showing too much sensitivity probably got himself laughed at, people turned it into a joke. And of course, being sensitive, he couldn't take it. Which turned him into who he is today, someone who comes across as insensitive and just plain weird. Sigh, it's really sad isn't it? Being unable to hook up with anyone because he can't accept himself.. When you can't accept your own qualities, be they good or flawed, you can never improve.

The worst thing is, he's so easy to read, even though he tries so hard to hide it. Some people are impossible to read, you just don't know who they are inside. But it's different with him, he's like an open book. And who is he? He's many things, but at this point in time, he's first and foremost a desperate guy. Who desperately wants to hook up with a girl, who desperately wants to get married, so he can move on with his life like any normal person his age. Unfortunately, his insincerity is choking him up and making him seem shallow. Honestly, I've never met anyone who's still in this rut at age 29. Anyway, wish him the best.. hehe.. hope he gets out of his rut soon.. :)

Nagoya, Japan

My big brother Tia has commented that my blog is not expressive enough, and thinks that I am not "suitable" for the blogging world. So, that is why I decided to write something today. After all, holiday is around the corner, and I am in no mood to do my work.. haha..

Anyway, hubby just told me this morning that he might get sent to Nagoya, Japan at the end of this month for some 5s thing. Needless to say, if he really does go, I am definitely jumping on the plane with him as well. Surely arrangement can be made so that we can share a hotel room, and anyway, we will already be saving costs on the plane ticket if the company is paying for his ticket. How come I'm saying all this so nonchalently, some might ask, and not leaping around with enthusiasm?

I guess I know that there's no use putting too much expectations into this trip. You know lah, X-Fab now is trying to save money, if I were the CFO, I also wouldn't send people over to Japan to work on how to do housekeeping stuff.. so you see big brother Tia, I am writing this with MIXED EMOTIONS.. haha.. a bit of excitement and caution at the same time, exacting caution so that I won't be disappointed. Hmm, maybe I should put a few exclaimation marks to make this post more expressive hor.. hehe..

Well, one thing I am looking forward to if I do get to go to Japan is all the hentai comics and sex toys that big brother Tia always talks about from his trip there... heheh.. cool or not?!

Funny..

Here's something funny that I wanna share with all you bloggers out there..

We all know those cute little computer symbols called "emoticons," where:
:) means a smile and
:( is a frown.

Sometimes these are represented by
:-)
:-(

Well, how about some "ASSICONS?" Here goes:
(_!_) a regular ass
(__!__) a fat ass
(!) a tight ass
(_*_) a sore ass
{_!_} a swishy ass
(_o_) an ass that's been around
(_x_) kiss my ass
(_X_) leave my ass alone
(_zzz_) a tired ass
(_E=mc2_) a smart ass
(_$_) Money coming out of his ass
(_?_) Dumb Ass

What I Love And Hate

This is my first tag.. yeee *cute sound* hehe..

1). I love to eat; Chocolate, pasta, pizza, fried chicken, cheesecake.. all the unhealthy food.. hehe
2). I hate to eat; lui cha

1). I love to go on; a sightseeing holiday in a foreign country (preferably with english speaking residents)
2). I hate to go on; a jam-packed road

1). I love it when; I get surprises from my hubby, even if the gifts are small or cheap (it's the thought that counts!)
2). I hate it when; I have to deal with bad tempered people who think that the world revolves around themselves and who doesn't bother to consider other people's feelings

1). I love to see; shooting stars in a brightly lit sky full of stars on a nice clean sandy beach
2). I hate to see; kids who cry and yell if their parents don't buy them a toy in a shopping complex

1). I love to hear; a witty person tell a witty or sarcastic joke
2). I hate to hear; my mom and granny nagging :P

True Friendship

What is the meaning of true friendship? Here's my take on it..

I believe true friendship is being able to share your deepest, most intimate feelings with someone, a friend whom you can rely on to be the understanding listener. The friend who does not judge your actions, or your thoughts. The friend who can sync his / her thoughts with yours, who can sometimes practically finish your sentences for you. The friend who understands your fears and your joys. The friend you never get bored hanging out with.

How many of our friends can we truly call our true friends? I could count all of mine on the fingers of one hand. :) Sure, it's limited, but then, I'm a picky person. And it's ok, coz I'd rather have these few true friends than having a hundred acquantainces whom I can't connect with, whom I can only smile and say hello and exchange a few pleasantries with.

There is however, a catch. I believe true friends must be of the same gender. I've found out that 2 people of the opposite sex just can't keep things platonic, at least through some of my own experiences. So, to all my true friends out there, you know who you are, friends forever! :)

Necessary Comforts

What do you think are the 2 most important parts of a woman's life, that we just can't do without? My answer is chocolate, and shopping. I guess some women will say it's their other half, the person who makes them complete, the love of their life.. ooo, how romantic. But things aren't always lovey dovey between couples. Who do you turn to when you get into a fight with your partner? Sure, you can tell your best friend, or brother, or sister.. but they're not the ones going through it, it's me. Nobody really understands fully, because they can't. They've never been through the situation before, and they're not in our shoes either.

So I turn to my favourite comfort food in the world, chocolate. Yummy.. chocolate truffles, chocolate ice cream, white chocolate, dark chocolate, a box of Cadbury roses.. anything with the taste of chocolate will do. Hehehe..

My next addiction, shopping. Which woman doesn't instinctively like shopping? I personally think every female is born with a "built-in" love for shopping. Just spending a whole day in a huge shopping complex on a shopping spree can make me feel so satisfied. Especially if I wind up carrying a lot of paper bags full of new clothes or shoes for the day.

I know, maybe I only have chocolates and shopping as substitution coz I don't really have anyone to talk to. But I'm not the type who would pour out my heart to any stranger. So, they'll just have to do for now. :)

Computer games - practice for multitasking?

I started gaming in my uni life - that was about 5 years ago. Since then, I've only been able to master warcraft and tried a few FPS games like CS, QuakeIII and UT. So, before you guys presume that I'm a hardcore gamer, I'm gonna come clean and admit that I'm not. Since I started working, I haven't really had much time for gaming anymore. But recently, I've started picking up on games again. My latest and only addiction is Dota (I've always preferred strategy to FPS).

Anyway, I've always thought that games, although addictive, also enhances our thinking skills and multitasking skills. Take for example, playing a hero in Dota. You gotta micromanage your 4 skills, and think about what to buy next so that can let you get the upper hand against your enemies. When in combat, you gotta be aware of your life and mana all the time, and remember to heal to avoid from dying. Dying, ouch, that hurts. So you'll find yourself busy all the time either trying to get those damn enemies or trying to stay alive.

Anyway, enough of this rambling, I'm just so damn bored now.

The Pretenders

Have you ever met someone who puts on a fake smile ALL the freaking time? Someone who lets out a fake laugh, who sings fake praises, who puts on a fake walk? Well, I've met my fair share in my quarter of a century of my life in this world. But I've never had to WORK with one before. It's a real pain in the ass, really. Or rather, pain in the ears. Her voice is just so freaking piercing and high pitched. And her laughter is always dripping with sweet treacle and honey..

I'm sure some people, be they from the male or female species kinda thrive on this kind of fake praises, but I'm definitely not one of them. No way, I prefer the people who are the "what you see is what you get" kind. Anyway, my boss once told me that there are a lot of kinds of people in the world. And you get the first hand experience dealing with them at your workplace. I guess that's how we mature, by tolerating all these kind of weird people.

So to all the pretenders out there, "Fang xin". I will tolerate you, even though I don't like you. Haha..